Awakenings

So, here I am, sitting creating a blog, ironically about being present in the moment, and it is consuming my time, my present time!  But I just can’t leave this new page blank, waiting.  Because, in the rawness of this moment, with my neck hurting, eyes burning from peering at the computer screen, and my tummy bloated from the popcorn I just consumed, I am, honestly, fully present (no pun intended!)  However, to be fully present, as romantic as it sounds, also means that I will be fully present with all of me, the pretty and the “ugly”.  The creative, beautiful, romantic, perfect moments, as well as the “boring”, tired, rough, “ugly”, icky moments.  The humdrum moments.  The presence of reality when we would rather not live in the moment.  And so, I must intro this blog with my raw honesty that this experience that I am choosing to fight for, will include all of the moments that I find myself present in.  And it is there that I will open my eyes to find the beauty of the mystery of that moment, as challenging as it may be.  So this is me:  bloodshot eyes, jeans and t-shirt, neck-ache, house-in-need-of-cleaning, chapped lips from too-much popcorn, and another day getting ready to dawn…and somehow, it’s kinda beautiful.  Maybe cuz it’s real?